I honestly can say I've never been so moved by a song in my entire life. That may not seem like a feat, but it is. I get happy when it comes on. Not like, "Oh yay, my favorite song!"-happy, I mean like, tangible, palpable happiness. I drop everything I'm doing and soak in it. It's not just happiness, even. It's hope. It's... it's exactly what I told myself for a good 6 or 7 (and still) years of my life, but never actually said to anyone.
It's so simple- the lyrics. 18 words repeated over and over for 3 minutes (minus the 9 minute gap of silence and the "bonus" track). And, really, it made me calm to know that there is somebody out there that feels/felt the same exact way I do. So much so, that they devoted an entire song to one message. I can understand if you don't enjoy listening to this song, I can understand if you don't like this band, but what I couldn't understand is not appreciating this song.
It seems so..opposite, lyrically. Like one half of your brain is saying the first 9-word phrase, and the other half is saying the 2nd 9-word phrase. It does not seem like they should be in the same song. It's as if there was a song about how awesome cake it, but they said not to eat cake. Yeah, it seems like that. Until you really, really, really think about it. Maybe it doesn't even take that much thought for you, I don't know.
Musically, it sounds fairly simple- on the surface. I have listened to it well over 1,000 times, at least. And I still hear new things.. things that make it more beautiful. Things that weren't necessarily hidden, but I just heard them.. I don't know if I'll ever be able to say that another song saved my life. Unless it's like, some Bon Jovi song that is like, "Pull over and go homeeee to the place where you belong." So I pull over and happen to pull out of the way of a barreling truck that's on fire.
Like, I know what Evangelical Christians feel like, now. You have this message that you believe with your entire heart, it's saved you, it's given you something so special, and you just want to tell everyone. Haha. I always put this on a CD. Fuck, I have officially included one of the 9-word phrases on 4 of my academic papers. One of them was in my college portfolio. I wrote 2 pages on this song for my First Year Writing class. I should of written more.
I guess that you might have to be in a certain mindset to really be moved by this song. /Cliche emo sentiment, you really have to want to die. Well, that's how I was so moved, the first time, at least. You have to be in the midst of planning your end, or in the midst of actually doing it. I keep saying "you have to", but you dont have to, I just think that it is the most powerful if your life is like that. But don't want to die just to appreciate this song :P
So, really, I just wrote this because I was making french fries in the oven with my iTunes on shuffle, and it came on out of the 8,000 songs I have. And I almost cried. Because, you know, it sounds so dumb, but I wouldn't be standing there, making those french fries, if it wasn't for this song. It means so much to be that I have it written on my skin, forever, until I don't have skin (which is surprisingly, extremely fitting for the said phrase).
So yeah, do me a favor.. listen. Just, get some headphones, turn them so loud that you are pondering whether or not they're too loud, zone out, close your eyes, and listen. Listen to it all, at first. Then, pick a part, listen for that part. Do it again..again. Most recently (and I do this with a lot of songs) I picked from 1:31-1:35. 4 seconds of this song that take my breath away. You hear creeping, haunting reverb for 4 seconds in the backround, then it sounds like the drums find this hope in themselves, and they slam 5 times in about 2 seconds. On the 5th slam, it explodes. You all think I'm crazy. It's okay, I think I'm crazy too. But I've never felt so...alive.